the only dream i can ever remember is a recurring nightmare, where i notice the huge amount of disorder in the universe - but i can see how to fix it and i'm the only one who can fix things. but they are changing, unjoining, breaking and becoming disordered at the same speed i can put things right. however fast i work, i know that i will be just a tiny distance from making everything work, but i know i'll never reach that point and it's crushing and heartbreaking but at the same time i know i can't stop changing things. ever.